Letter from the future

Dear 10year old self,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing? I can tell that you’re in your 4th grade right now. Are you having fun? I am sure you are. Just keep doing your best and enjoy.

Sweetheart, ten years from now you will find yourself writing a blog. What is a blog? Well, you will have to find out all about it soon. But basically, it's like a diary. Yes, like the one you've been writing. Only this kind of diary is not yours to keep for yourself. You write and then you share it to other people, to the readers. You will learn that you cannot have all the time in the world to experience all the mistakes you may need to grow as an individual so you need to learn from the mistakes of other people. This will inspire you to write and share about your experiences so that other people may learn from your experiences, in turn helping them manage their limited time in the world. 

In addition to that realization, you will write articles, entries, poems, etc. for this "diary" because someone will inspire you to. Who? Well, let's just say a guy. Haha! Yes, you will have a crush on this guy. Should I tell you more about him? Hmm... let's see...

You will meet him in college. You will know it's him when you feel some butterflies fluttering in your stomach when you talk to each other. And yes, that is right.  You two will fall in love.:) But I should warn you, sweetheart. In the end, you will get your heart broken by him. I know it's rotten. (keep on reading, sweetheart.)

As I have said, your heart will be broken. But please know that it will be nobody’s fault.

Let me start by saying that although it is true that you should learn from the mistakes of other people, there are still certain mistakes that are meant to be taken even though you already know they are mistakes. Well I’m not saying that falling in love with this guy is a mistake. No. What I am trying to say is that there are roads which need to be thread in order to get to your destination. One of them is this one. So go ahead and fall in love with him.

He is a good person, sweetie, and he will be to you. He will inspire you to be a good and positive person. You know, you will have lots of dramas during those times, I don’t know why, and he will be there for you. He will not tolerate your childishness, but he will always support you. You will share laughters, tears, rants and crazy moments. He will accept the whole you, and you will do the same for him. You will love him dearly.

And listen to this. What you two will have will be very beautiful and special. So even though you will cry buckets in the end because of him, I want you to go ahead and take that road with him. I don’t want you to deprive yourself of the happiness you can experience with him just because you now know that it will not last until the time we wished it would. But when the difficult moment comes, I want you to remember this: everything will be okay. Even though it does not seem to be like it, it will. You will have good friends to be there for you. And quotes, I should not forget. You will have your own way to pick yourself up, and for that I am very proud of you! But just in case your heart gets really heavy, just read this and know that a pained person cannot write about her pain sanely like this if she is still deeply suffering from it. See! It will be okay eventually.

Let me tell you about life, in general, quickly. Sweetie, for the next 13 years of your life, you will lose a lot of battles. You will find yourself crying a lot of times. Hormones for the most part, and the rest, life’s reality. You may have to burn bridges. But it does not mean you are bad or they are bad. It is simply because you cannot keep everybody. You should keep only those who are true. You may fail in one thing or the other. But it does not mean that you are weak or that you are a failure. Failure makes you stronger. Most of the roads of life are not smooth and paved. There are bumps and lumps. But you should not be afraid to keep moving forward. Everything happens for a reason, even though the reason does not reveal itself immediately when we ask for it.

The reason why our first love did not work, I still do not know. I have yet to discover it. But look, I think we have learned a lot because of it.

Your life is beautiful and will always be, sweetie. Yes, sometimes you will think that it is full of shits. You will trip, sometimes because of someone else’s foot, sometimes because of your own. But at the end of each day, you will get up. And I am really proud of you.

And yes, about your real prince? I am sorry I don’t have the answer to that yet. But I trust that he's out there somewhere. Trust me, he is.:)

Keep your head high there, buddy!

Love,

Your 13years-older self.

P.S.
Always remember these things: Enjoy the ride. Live while you’re young. You will have plenty of time to discover the beauty of your life I was talking about. But don’t you worry. The next 13 years will not be as disappointing as you picture it now based on what I have written here. There will be lots of good times and success stories, of course!:) Oh no, you are not yet a lawyer. I’m still working on it. Please-be-patient-you-don’t-know-what-you’re-wishing-for-this-early. Anyway, yes, you will build new bridges. You will succeed many times, small and big things. You will laugh a lot. You will gain and receive more than you think you deserve. And yes, you will have to thank the Lord for all of them.